It hurts me so much that there are problems going on in my apartment right now. I wish that I can fix it, but I cannot. It has nothing to do with me, and yet it hurts that I cannot do anything to fix it. I suppose I make things more complicated for myself than I have to, but hey, that is who I am. Duaine told me, "Baby, you cannot save the world," and this is true, I can't. So I have decided to focus on my needs more, I just have to. Let other people deal with their own problems. It does not mean that I will stop caring, but it means I will stop caring to the degree that I have been caring just far. Caring so much, that I am making myself with sick and grief, and I should not have to do that.