Shemika is a strong girl, but living with my mom is breaking her down. She is tired of dealing with all of the bullshit, and I know I would be too in her situation. Atleast I have my own apartment, and do not live in the same city with my mother, but now shemika. I just wish that I could help her out. Maybe I can give her half of what is in my savings to find an apartment or something. If it comes down to that, I will, and let my car be on hold. That is what the transportation system is for right? My Uncle told me awhile ago, that there might be a time where I will probably need to help out my sister, and I think this chance is here.

But it hurts because I have worked my butt of for a whole year to save up this money for something that I realy want,but not necessarily need. I know eventually I will eventually get a car, but it sucks what things come up in life.

I wish that my mother did not have this damn illness, because it sure as hell makes it harder on everyone else. But I must not be selfish, and put myself in her shoes, she needs help, and she is doing what she thinks is right in order for it to cope with it.