I'm feeliing kind of low right now. I'm feeling kind of lonely. Sure, I have my friends, but I want some male attention. I would love to have a guy hold and cuddle with me. I'm a cuddling kind of person. I don't know, right now I my emotions are kind of out of wack. I think it is because I'm going to start my period soon, but I'm feeling a little depressed right now.

I have not felt like this in awhile. I think it is because I'm sort of stressed right now. School has gotten me kind of riled and worried. I'm scared that I will flunk out of my major. If I do that, I won't beable to get into medical school. Without medical and school and my degree, I won't be able to be a pediatrician, which has been my dream since I was seven. But lately I have been feeling that maybe it's not for me because the work is too hard for me. I'm not whining about the whole situation, but I hate feeling stressed. I know that everyone may feel stressed in all of their majors. But I'm just afraid of failing. That is one of most worst fears, failing in life, and not accomplishing what I want in my life. But I know that this will not happen because he is on my side. He will bless me with everything that my heart desires, I just have to live my life for him. I'm just overwhelmed a little right now, and maybe it is due to the fact that I'm not in complete balance with everything. I think I need to have a balance in studying time, extracurricular time, and sleep. Last year I completely burned myself out, by not having an equal balance of everything. I feel like I'm on the path of burning myself out, that I'm unraveling. I have to stop this now before I'm an emotional wreck.