But anyway the reason I feel so tired right now is because I think my mind is breaking down. I'm so sick of school right now it's not even funny. I know that this is only the first quarter, but this is physically , mentally and emotionally draining, even more so than last year. I do not know what it is this year that has gotten me so down and stresed.

What I really need is a break. I just cannot wait to go home on wednesday right after my midterm. not coming back until sunday baby! I think being cooped up on campus is doing me in. It's driving me crazy. I think having my own car would help also. If I felt like going out, I could just go for a drive somewhere. But I just have to take it one day at a time.

I hate feeling so stressed out. I am so irritable, and I don't make good company. I try to be good company for everyone, but it does not work. I hate feeling this way because I"m all tensed up, and I have a headache right now also. I just do not feel like myself.

I'm not trying to complain or anything,because there are many people who are in worse situations than me, but sometimes I just wish that life would just give me a break, but that is not how it works. I just have to have in God, that he will take me through these trials and tribulations, and that I'm going through them for a reason.

Oooh, I have gas right now. It hurts so bad. It's because of my stress right now, I know it. It has settled under my ribcage, and it is just sitting there, it makes the spot that it is in really sore. I can feel it traveling up my shoulder. Believe me, you do not want to feel this because it hurts like the dickens. (better than me inserting a cuss word in there.) But anyways everyone I gotta go, have to read, and get some sleep, and to seriously try to relax because at this rate, I might worry myself to death If I keep this amount of stressing up.

~Michelle~