So I'm sitting here in my apartment all by myself. It's only me and mordrid. (the fish) He was pretty happy to see me though. I fed him and changed his water. No one will be back until Sunday probably, so I will here all by myself. Though I am kind of lonely, it's good to have some time to myself. It gives me time to think and reflect on things that are going on in my life. I do not get to do that often.

I think about whether or not I can do things differently in getting the things that I want done. Is there anyway to be more effective in my goals that I'm trying to pursue. All I can do is keep pushing myself, keep doing my best, and I know that I will succeed.

I know that this is probably coming from left wing, but it has been building for awhile. The problems that are going on in my family are taking it's toll on me. I just wish I can escape from my problems, but I know that I can't so I just deal with them the best way I know how. I refuse to let them bring me down, I can't let that happen.